like my friend, who is from japan, wrote in my yearbook a traditional japanese phrase for things of this sort, which is a polite form of “good luck on becoming a better person” or something of that sort
and i know it’s (half) a joke, because i’m not like, the world’s best person, but whatever. i’ve known this girl for three years and we’ve been school friends since we were sophomores. no big deal.
but then i go up to her (again, half joking) like “do my best on becoming a better person?” and she kind of laughed.
and this other girl was like “well, that’s pretty fit advice. you should listen to her.”
and like i barely fucking know this girl
but for some reason, she adamantly hates me.
she thinks that whenever i complain about something my one friend did, i haven’t told my friend first (which is bull because my friend knows that i think she is strategically a moron), and like this girl just hates me
and i’m just thinking “okay, i’m not the bitch who told off a teacher or makes snide remarks all fucking day just fucking chill.”
like literally, what does it matter to her? i’m not an awful human being. it just annoys me when people i care about are being unrealistic morons (as my one friend frequently is). i mean, sure, i don’t like, ~volunteer~ or anything, but i also don’t try to take out like 243432 scholarships to pay for a dorm because i want to live with my boyfriend and won’t pay both. like really, there are people who need those to be able to go to school period. cry me a fucking river, it’s living in a dorm for a year with your boyfriend nearby.
i am just really pissed off at the way she acts like she knows me and knows that i’m an awful person.
i’m sorry, but the only people who are even vaguely allowed to do something like that are the person’s friends. i would never ever tell someone i barely know that they need to become a better person. like really it’s basic fucking politesse. don’t be such a fucking bitch.
So my friend decided to use gay as a euphemism for “awesome”…
and like, the person wasn’t even talking to her
she just butted into their conversation
and they meant literally gay. as in attracted to the same sex.
but she hears gay and automatically assumes an insult
and she was like “oh, did you mean awesome? cos it is!”
and when I heard, I was just like “oh no, honey, just… stop, okay?”
and like I don’t think she understands that most people she knows kind of hate her?
I mean I love her to death, but she needs to stop
especially since most of her friends are graduating and she’s not
she’s going to get the shit beat out of her one day.
but JJ Jones from Skins was about as bang-on as you could get. Moreover, his mother was about as bang-on as you could get.
Like Sheldon Cooper and Spencer Reid are just like ~super genius~ and… not all people with Asperger’s are geniuses.
Not just any art school; art school in Georgia.
So, of course, this prompted me to look up my former best friends, because, really, this girl is setting herself up for failure.
Two are drop outs, two are hipsters, and two… I don’t even know.
Anyway, this has made me feel super good about myself, especially since the field that I’m most interested in has a high demand with a fairly low supply, and she wants to go into one of the most overstocked fields ever. (It’s worse than a degree in theatre, I mean, really.)
for the love of god, I am not that fucking bad.
even when I’m not medicated
god
how do they even function?
oh, I know. I tell my mother what to do and my friend’s mother tells her what to do.
That’s totally going to work for the rest of their lives :D
GET YOUR FUCKING SHIT TOGETHER
I know that I have ADD, but my mother and my friend are really pissing me off with theirs.
It’s like I have to tell them something fifty fucking times before they do it because they get so distracted by stupid shit.
I mean.
Really.
Just take some fucking medication like the rest of us, or, failing that, write shit down.
I can’t do anything.
Really.
It hurts to sit up for more than twenty minutes, so I have to lay in bed but then I get a headache and ARGH
- obnoxious overbearing political views (that don’t accept any opposing views as valid! :D )
- memes
- annoying fandom “jokes” that aren’t funny. like “10k notes” stupid shit.
- “YAOI CLOUD YAOI” shit. You support gay rights? Great! Two male characters TALK and you immediately assume homoerotic subtext even when they’re blatantly straight? Nope. Like some of the pairings are legit, but most of them are just… stupid.
- “GUYS GUYS STUPID FANDOM LOOPHOLE THAT DOESN’T EXIST :DDD”
- “PEETA IS OBSESSED WITH BREAD” I don’t even know where the fandom got that, but the Hunger Games fandom seems to be absolutely batshit
- and of course HOMESTUCK which is pretty self explanatory.
I just… I don’t follow her for good reasons but then I think that maybe she’s posted something decent, but it’s all stupid reblogs that leave me ridiculously angry.
like I have so much shit wrong with me and the only thing that I haven’t had my whole life was depression.
it’s not like my sister is perfect, either, though most of her issues stem from her ptsd, not something that happened as a fetus.
It’s just… weird to think about sometimes, because so much is wrong with me, and even though everything that’s wrong with me is pretty mild on its own… it still piles up.
